I write you, and explain.
Confide. Confess.
I write you. And tell you.
Tell myself.
Just how crazy I've become.
I write you, and tell you. What I won't tell anyone else.
What I hide. By keeping no secrets. It can't all be true.
For advice. (For what?) Will they take away, all my things? Like the contract says?
What do I own, again? There's a Hello Kitty toaster. Pink.
Things. I own things.
Things. It's the little things that get you. Hair too long. A complexion that shows the worry.
Clothes not quite clean.
Little things, like shame, in even a look returned. Hurtful just to make eye contact. To see what I've become, reflected in eyes that I can't quite distract. With all the words. However clever. However many.
Can't cover myself in words. No longer.
No longer being asked. For change on the corner. Smiles returned. From people I never really looked at, before.
Am I waving at them? Why are they waving at me? Who are they waving at? What do they see?
The smile. Can't possibly hide everything. Can't possibly make people not see. This.
Me.
Ashamed to be me. Ashamed to be clinging to the words that say it's all going to be alright.
Ashamed to believe myself, to believe in things. That feel so hollow.
I write you, and tell you.
Write and tell. I know this. This I know.
But I don't know. What I'm trying to say.
Or who I'm saying it to.
I don't know. Who I am, to you.
Don't know. Who I am. Anymore.
With no you, to tell me.
Even if it's what I'm sure I'm not.
I'm not sure.
I don't know.
I can't remember.
I remember you. Do you remember me?
I'm not him, anymore. I'm pretty sure.
You don't owe me anything.
And I don't have anything to give.
Except a smile. That I give to you, only for me.
And words.
More burden than gift.
I won't.
I can't.
I don't know why."
-Carl Steadman (www.freedonia.com)






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Please
Runescape and maple story are boring cause I dont like them anymore
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Please
Runescape and maple story are boring cause I dont like them anymore
(and it might seem sort of strange i can recognize that particular pic, but my sister loved that photograph and had it as the background on the computer and whatnot for a while, so i know it.)
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"i hope you get where you're going, and be happy when you do." --on the road
~rhfu ~coldplay-fans ~Rhead
Por favor k kieres!! nadie me dice k me agreges a tu puto dev+watch eres un pendejete aki nadamas no se porque pagas la subscripcion y aqui no se viene a joder aqui se viene a subir arte pages o no, seas un puto enfermo de lapra o de sida, diabetiko un sano vale verga aki lo que importa es tu arte y no si tienes una pute enfermedad mira tu basura aja esa la hago con paint por favor!!! c akabo!! ajaja!! mira tu hablando solo en tu pagina como no tienes a nadie que te escriba, ponte a razonar y no te pongas a hablar como si supieras todo del arte pendejin.. y lo que me pusiste de mensaje lo digo en 10 palabras, ponte a trabajar en lugar de estar pensando que escribirle a los demas, un consejo: mueve tu culo de donde estas y vete a cagar ah, pero si pujas y pujas y no puedes cagar, no te hagas pendejo y vete a trabajar ajaja
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aver kien ve este mensaje.... ps nadie ajaja
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Mexicano? :iconmexicanos:
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